I know it’s all an overreaction. In my head I know it.
I guess it’s got something to do with the fact that before, it was so much worse. I guess it’s because last time, it was tearing people and families apart. That’s all I saw. And pain is all I felt. I saw someone who was too far gone that their entire life and perception was distorted. I guess it just scares me to even consider that happening now.
But I know it won’t, In my head, I know that you are not him.
It’s just like.. relapsing into a place you could’ve sworn you’d been before. But ultimately, you can’t relate the two situations because they are so incredibly different. It’s stupid to even think you can approach them in the same way. But the similarity scares you enough to make you stupid. The irrational feelings I get now, I’m trying to understand.
Because I’m confused and I don’t quite get any of it.
When really.. none of this even concerns me.
I don’t have to worry, I don’t have to feel hurt - that was then, not now.
I know this all in my head.
